CHANGE

Rob Dyrdek said this on The Skinny Confidential Podcast & it really spoke to me : “When I’ve grown to the edges of whatever particular venture or identity or direction – I don’t just keep going. I stop & take the risk to reinvent myself & go to another level.”

I honestly thought that I was someone who didn’t like change. But this past year has taught me that change is a sign of intelligence & critical thinking. & it was time for me to make a change.

When I went to Jamaica in September on my “free” trip (but really it’s not free when you have to pay taxes on it lol but I digress) – I realized I was not where I needed to be. I’m needed at home. My mindset shift hit me like a ton of bricks. I don’t want or need anything that takes me away from my family. “The most important work you will ever do will be within the walls of our homes” kinda thing. & I’m lucky enough to love my home life so much I don’t need an escape from it.

I’m headed on a different route then where I’ve been the last 2.5 years. I’m getting back to basics & showing up for myself, my husband, my children, & our home. In 5 years from now I won’t be proud that I spent more time on my phone or that I climbed leaderboards or “pin titles” – I’m happy to be out of that bubble.

What’s rewarding to me is my family feeling my presence in our home. I’m personally so sick of getting on social media & seeing consumerism pushed in our faces. & I’m not going to be part of it. I admire women who spend their days outside. Women who read books & don’t watch the news. Women who make homemade meals & live slowly. It’s really freaking hard to go against the grain but I don’t admire “hustle culture” or consumerism.

It’s also hard to walk away from something you’re good at. & I could have just kept going, collecting a paycheck, but morally it wasn’t aligning anymore. Sure, I can play the game, but I don’t want to anymore. Everything that glitters isn’t gold & once you see enough of what’s going on behind the scenes . . . it’s time to walk away. ( & walking away during the best sales period of the year really says something ). In this business they say “quit on a good day” – & I’d say being at the top of the leaderboards, leading a team of over 100 women, & earning a trip to Jamaica is a “good day.” A lot of thought went behind this decision.

I don’t know what’s next for me, but I do know that whatever I choose to do, I’ll be good at. We should all take a minute to examine the things/jobs/people we let into our lives. Let’s also stop projecting that being a stay at home mom isn’t enough . . . when really, it is. I was willing to step away from the money I was earning because what’s it worth if I’m not living authentically to myself & showing up for my family. Want to know what’s more important than Instagram? Everything.

I’ve had this account long before I was a part of social selling, & I’ll have it long after. I’ve had this website before I was even a wife or mother. My community on here ( you all ! ) mean so much to me.

So what does this mean for my customers? I’m STILL working with NuSkin . . . I just disconnected myself from the team I was on if that makes sense. I got into this business because I fell in love with the products. I will literally always use NuSkin products & I stand behind them!! If you need skincare help, I’m still your girl 😉

I think there is a fine line between genuinely trying to help women with their self care / skincare / confidence vs just trying to make a buck. People get greedy in this business. They just do. I will still share the products I use & love, but in a more authentic way. I’m trying to slow down & be present.

I do not regret the time I’ve spent on this business. It has taught me a lot & brought a lot of good into my life. In 2020 it was a way to feel connected during a year of isolation. In 2021 it was a way for me to feel productive & good about myself when I was mentally at the lowest I had ever been. Now, in 2022, there’s no space for it.

I’m staying true to myself & I know I did the right thing. I am the happiest I have been in a really long time & that makes it all worth it.

Thanks for being here & loving & supporting me through all of my seasons.

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